We have family in. Here for a few more days. They came in yesterday afternoon. They are from Missouri. Our missouriens.๐Ÿ˜ lol. I totally made that word up. It’s my husband’s cousin Chris and 3 of his 7 children. Yes I said 7 and all 7 are super awesome๐Ÿ’œ they range in age from like early 20s to 6 years old. 4 girls and 3 boys. They are so much fun! I am truly hoping I hold out. I’d hate to have a flare while they are here visiting. All though they would understand I don’t want to miss any time with them because we don’t get to see each other much. Do to distance. Right now we are watching the new Black Panther movie in my living room. Well I better get back to it. ๐Ÿ˜Š


That chronic illness comfort feeling…

It’s so strange how you get such a comfort feeling when you realize or learn someone else has the same chronic illness as you do. Nowย I’m not saying your happy that they are ill because that’s not even close. It’s just that you get a comfort feeling because you know they truly understand where your coming from and what you’re going through. I know we can explain to people all day long in every kind of way possible but the only people who truly understand you are your fellow chronic sufferers,otherwise you actually really feel pretty alone most of the time. So when you come across someone with the same illness you get a strange feeling of comfort because for a second you don’t feel alone anymore and that’s where the comfort feeling comes in. Crazy, Yes I know and so very sad too. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

I actually just realized the feelings and why we have the feelings when I was watching a YouTube video. I had been watching this particular joint video lately where 4 different people come together once a week and do a joint video on a certain area. An area I’m interested in and found that this paticular group are great at teaching me. I learn so much from them. I actually favor this group of people for learning. I don’t want to put names out there without permission or I’d definitely send you that way but with all my personal opinion in this post i’d rather just not. So anyway, one day I thought to myself hey I want to go follow all of each of their social sites. Even their individual stuff. So,ย that’s what I have started doing. When I found one guys personal YouTube channel I followed and started watching some of his personal stuff and in one video. His introduction video he talks about how he use to work a “regular” job but was eventually diagnosed with a few health things. One of which was ……….fibromyalgia. So now he does the whole resale and social world stuff. It brings in some cash and gives him something to do. He talked about how sometimes he don’t do much or any work due to pain and flare ups and he went on explaining a little to educate people. Anyway he sounded like he was explaining me. My life. It was crazy. And to think I had been watching him in the group videoย for a while now and didn’t have a clue. I definitely have more respect for him now for sure.

So yeah, that was my experience with the weird comfort feeling. Once I realized I just had to share. I hope someone can relate.ย  ๐Ÿ™‚



Old New Dog

So we got a new dog…

New but not new and not really old either. lol. He’s only like 18 months. His name is Chance. He’s a lab mix. Looks like he might have some German Sheppard in him as well.

He belonged to my parent In-laws. Which I knew it the day she brought him home that he would be way too much. They both trained him well. My father in-law did most of the dog walks but can’t do them anymore do to illness and my mother in-law has some disability’s with her hips, legs, and back. She’s had many surgery’s but I guess when she first saw Chance she just fell in love. They tried as long as they could and just can’t care for Chance any longer. The do love him to pieces though. Sooooo,,,, Yep we took him in. It was either us or some strangers and this way they can still see him whenever they want. Heck, we only live around the corner from them. we’ve also known him since he was a pup. He’s grown up with our children who also love him to pieces annnddd he’s an already trained dog. Plenty of positives.

Only thing is my doctor had previously told me in a convo we had that he didn’t want me walking big dogs because he’s afraid it will irritate my fibro but what do you do in this big situation??? Even considering my doc’s opinion I still think we made the right choice.

I only have to take him out if I’m the only one home and when I do we only walk our own back yard. That way hopefully he don’t pull as much.

He has really fallen in love with me. He follows me everywhere I go. He’s so cute. He even refuses to sleep anywhere else but in my bed with my husband and I.

He does this cute little thing. He will come over and just put head in my lap and just stay there. ๐Ÿ™‚

So a new life journey has deffinetly begun…

The flu

So my house has the flu. ๐Ÿค’๐Ÿ˜ทMy kids have the flu. ๐Ÿ˜ต There’s been vomiting everywhere….

They both woke to vomiting. First my daughter then my son. My son even actually puked on our dog scooter.๐Ÿถ Poor puppy dog. Our dog Scooter has always sleept with our son but who would imagine that would ever happen. Poor poor puppy dog! ๐Ÿ•

I’ve been ruining up and down our stairs, taking care of my sick kids and now my legs hurt so bad from it. Man it’s been rough. On all of us. There ill with the flu. I’m so exhausted and in pain… ugh. But when children need their mommy, they will always come first. Hands down! They come before our own illness, needs, wants, dreams, crippling conditions, pains and or sicknesses. Anything and everything! And a mommy’s babies come first no matter if they are newborn, teenagers or adults. It’s just the way mommy’s are made. ๐Ÿ’œ

Hopefully they start to get better fast because I know how bad the flu sucks and I don’t want them feeling bad.

Well it’s 12:30am and I’m about to eat me some chocolate pebbles cereal and then hopefully get me some sleep. Goodnight to you all! ๐Ÿ›


Couldn’t use my arms today. Started this afternoon. Suddenly the left then the right began to ach like crazy. I became very tired and no energy. Still, dinner had to be made. Thank you to my daughter Rylie who saved the day. ๐Ÿ˜ She made dinner for me. For us all! So that I could rest. She’s the best. She cooked deer steak In the air fryer and instant mash potatoes. ๐ŸฝYummy yummy… but oh boy right after dinner my fibro doubled. ๐Ÿ˜” I couldn’t anything. I just layed in bed.๐Ÿ› Not moving. I couldn’t. No strength. I couldn’t even keep my eyes open ๐Ÿ˜ด so to sleep I went. I slept about 45 min then my phone woke me๐Ÿ˜but I do feel half better. I’d say back to where it started And better than where I was. But man that weakness, no strength crap is just for the birds๐Ÿ•Š ๐Ÿ˜


So my wrists and legs have been acting up and I’ve been extra tired these last few days. I think it’s because of our crazy Ohio weather. We were nice spring like weather today. So lovely out. Warm to cold. Cold to warm. So I figured that’s what’s caused my flair up.

Well I was already dealing with that but had to take my kids to their school last night. Sadly it was for a memorial gathering. Because unfortunately Wednesday after school 3 highschool kids slid on ice. Wrecked. Slid into guardrail. Hit telephone pole and split it in half. The car then flipped and went into a tree. Sadly two of the children did not make it. The third child, a girl was in a coma at first and when she awoke her parents had to tell her that her brother and one of her best friends did not make it. So the football team put together a memorial after school Thursday at 8 p.m. out at the football field. So of course I took my children. My daughter knew the little girl who did not make it. They use to sit together on the bus. So we sat up on the bleachers. It Was freezing cold which was fine. Well before anything started I get up and start to walk down the metal steps and slip on an icy step. I went down on my ass and slid down a few steps in the process. So humiliating. I wanted to die or become invisible. There were probably a few hundred people that showed and an intire area saw me. ๐Ÿ˜” Of course everyone asked if I was okay but oh my golly how embarrassing. Ugh… Hurt my self as well but man. Then go figure today (the very next day after me) My husband slips on oil at work and lands on his ass and messed his back up bad. Actually he’s laying next to my at this moment and dying of back pain. So I wander which kid of ours is gonna fall tomorrow and if so I will let you all know.

Good place…

   So I went and seen my pain doc today. Regular checkup. Waited in the room longer than the actual visit even was. Go figure. 

   Anyway, he said that I’m in a good place and that he’s happy for me because so many people never find that. That this is his goal with his patients. To at least find a good place. A balanced livable place with or thought this condition. Since there is no cure. Which he’s right.  I’ve definitely been In the worst way with this crappy fibro in the past and I see so many people out there in dyer pain and with so many issues and or problems And here is me. I have pain. I have issues but today, in my life, I can honestly say I’m ok. I really am. I still have my issues, limits and pain but I still try to find the positive in everything.  Although I don’t always win. Lol but I do try. I’ve also noticed that I’ve become a YOLO kinda women. I know what my possible future can be so I try to go for it in life. More yesses than no’s.๐Ÿ˜ 

   Like when I said yes let’s bring this cute lil kitten on our CAR ride home from Missouri. ๐Ÿˆ Because how often do you get a chance to do that. Even though we already had 2 cats, 2 dogs and 2 guinea pigs at home. (The guinea pigs were also some of my YOLO’s) Haha. Of course my husband had said no but did I listen? Nope. And we named him Mizzou. Which is after their football team the Missouri Mizzou’s๐Ÿˆand yes my husband did fall in love with our new kitten. Well, he’s not so new anymore๐Ÿ˜Š  

   Another great example is literally last night I was talking to my daughter over the railing. She was on the stairs and I was on the 1st floor. We were in reachable distance. ๐Ÿ˜ So I had teased her about something๐Ÿ˜• (fibro brain blank). And so she fake smacked me. I then instantly thought – should I throw my cup of water on  her??๐Ÿต๐Ÿค” and yes people.  I did it.  Instantly I came back at her with my cup of water. ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ’ง Haha. Yolo ppl.  Although she did go get an ice cold cup of water and when I was sitting all comfy in my bed watching t.v. guess what happened.  She got me back.  A cup of cold cold water all over me. ๐Ÿ˜‚ lol . Yolo ppl. 

   Anyway, those were some example’s of things I probably wouldn’t have ever done before fibro.  I just don’t want to miss out or regret anything. Fibro is limiting but I do what I can.