So lately I have been trying to learn about how to run a business from ebay. I’ve even sold I think 3 things. It’s so crazy the things people will buy. It just drives me crazy that I’m not helping my husband care for our family. I want to help and then some. Like my daughter and I love our girls days. Shopping and restraunts or whatever ails us. I love to help with my children and I love to have money when they ask for ice cream. I want to help pay for bills and food. School is coming and I have no money to help and it makes me sad that I can’t help. This fibromyalgia don’t let me be consistent in any type of job and so I thought maybe if I start selling on eBay I could get some money in and I can do it slowly. Anything is better than the nothing that I have now and I can do what I can when I can. I wouldn’t have to worry about a boss, losing a job or any type of obligations and timelines. So I thought maybe this would be a good way for me to help. I’m not sure if it will work out. I certainly hope so. I know I have a lot to learn and it will be a slow process. But that’s perfectly fine. If anybody has any advice I’d appreciate it because fibromyalgia sucks!
I really love this. Made me feel like a better person, so I wanted to share that with everyone. 🙂
I am pretty confident these days with my life and who I am. It’s taken decades and a lot of soul searching, turning myself inside out, and hundreds of books. I’m also in my 40’s and I believe that, at this point, I’m just tired of the drama around trying to fit in or keep up. I stepped off the main path with all the others a while back and now I just wander around looking at the brightly colored flowers and enjoying the sights.
As a writer and homemaker, I’ve gone through the insecurities of not being good enough, creative enough, blah, blah, blah. Oh, and then you add motherhood. The three topics could put me in therapy for days. At what point do we know we are doing a great job just as we are and doing just what we are doing? How fabulous, fun, and sparkly do…
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So last night I was in a research mode and I looked up many things that popped into my mind. One of which was is there a state that would be better for someone like me who suffers from fibromyalgia to live in?
I couldn’t find anything even close. I looked up which state via laws, health care, doctor care, and just over all and I still didn’t find anything. Only personal opinions that the warmer states help them, the mid west helped her comments. It was all weather wise and everyone contradicted each other.
I’ll probably look more into it but it was on my mind so I wanted to share. 🙂
So this really has nothing to do with my fibromyalgia but it is such a great story I must share…
So a couple of weeks ago my children and I were driving down an old country road and came across a huge turtle in the road. A lady stopped right before us so that’s what first got our attention. We also stopped and were trying to help get this poor turtle out of the road.
He was a snapping turtle so that only made things harder. So the only thing we could come up with was find a big enough stick to push on his shell but not hurt him but get him to safety. All the while cars driving past us. Some being rude because we are all standing in the road to protect the turtle.
We did manage to get him to safety. It was a slow process because we didn’t want to hurt him. I only hope he never went back into the road. I couldn’t believe how big he was. I didnt know we have turtles that big here in Ohio. He was about as big as a tire rim. Maybe a little smaller but real close.
Fibromyalgia, oh fibromyalgia….. ughhh…. So I’ve already figured out I can only do so much for so long before fibro knocks me on my butt like—- POW….. And that it did. ugh.
Yesterday evening it hit me. I had been going all busy body for a while now. with only worsening pains. (not to downplay the pain only it’s just not what this story is about.) which got really bad but not yet the knock me down .
It went busy body, short of sleep, craziness, stress, overwhelmed, and about to freak out mode till it knocked me down. All in a days time. Whoa…
So this is the story— My 13-year-old daughter Rylie had come up with this idea to have a summers last blow out sleep over with her besties. So she invited them over for her sleep over … There ended up being 3 extra teeny boppers at my house. Not to mention Rylie, my son Naven and 2-year-old nephew Kaegen. Pluse a husband lol.
The girls were good and all just full of energy. They stayed up untill around 1am downstairs. Then went up stairs but not to sleep. They pulled an all nighter which is fine. I know it’s fun. Though loud enough to wake me several times.
5am my son wakes me. Girls were screaming and freaking out so he came to the rescue but found that our brand new 6 week old kitten mizzou (From our Missouri vacation) had fallen through a crack where our old pull dolly in our home is and down to the basement. (I guess one of the girls had left the door open.) Kitten crying and trying to climb the old rope back up but re-falling. It was so so sad.
I wake my husband who has to go to the basement and pull old boards out of the wall to reach the kitten. Kitten Mizzou Rescued!!! Such a relief. Her poor nose was bleeding but she seemed ok.
Sad thing is that this isn’t her first rodeo. Poor girl last week went up the stairs to my sons room then walked out over to the railing and just fell. Of course he called me scared saying emergency, emergency and I came home fast as possible. Her little nose was bleeding then as well but otherwise ok. I had called the vet and she talked to me about all the ins and outs. So, unfortunately this isn’t her first rodeo..
Anyway, Kaegen and I woke around 10am. Cool and chill then whinny sets in and girls wake up. Busy all over. Niece Sydney is in town from the Navy. mother-in-law made food, Son needs me to go somewhere with him, Girls need me for this and that., Whiney head Kaegen needs me and everything but yet nothing and all at the same time…. Ugh. I felt pulled this way that way and the other all at once.
Finally done and home. Then BAM, POW, BOP!! Yep, Im done. Absolutely no energy, or strength. Everything hurts. Feel of the flu but not the flu to best explain, but worse… In bed I went. It was even too much to watch t.v. So to sleep I went and I slept untill 10am the next morning.. I woke feeling a little better. I Just know I must take it slow and steady for a while.
I hate fake storeys. I was recently tagged to an article on Facebook that was saying they finally figured out the where and why of fibromyalgia… Saying that they finally found proof that it’s in our blood. So on and so on.
Yet it would be awesome if they did figure out any information of the sorts, because we can’t have a cure for fibro until we find out the where and why of it, But I see so many completely different stories all the time. It’s so miss leading to those of us who suffer.
No one should post that they found this information if it’s not real info. Ugh… honestly I think I may have posted about this very some subject in the past at one time or another. Its just that it annoys me so bad.😡
I only want to read real info! Anyways, Thanks Ashley for tagging me to something you thought mite be helpful to me. 💜
Yard work and fibromyalgia just don’t mix very well together. Which I had already found that out the hard way last year. But the temptations… When you see something and just want it done the right way right now. Ugh… The struggle to not do things is very real. Sounds a little crazy, I know. Lol but there really is a struggle.
So there were some things I wanted done in our yard and I wanted it done today. So I put the kids to work. Which they already know my yard limitations. At least for the most part. So when I asked them for help they didn’t mind or hesitate. My daughter mowed the grass while my son cut down a lot of weeds in a certain area of our yard for me. It’s an area we use to call the jungle. It was once filled with lots of pretty flowers but now mostly taken over by weeds.
So, I decided that next year I want to plant vegetables there. And them weeds just had to go today. They had been driving me crazy long enough. But of course I can’t help my self and start trying to help my son and the next thing I know is I can’t stand straight up because my back hurts so bad. My son tells me “this is why I told you not to mess with stuff. You know you will get hurt. ” So I had to sit in a chair until it calmed down before I could go inside and call it a day. He did finish cutting all the weeds down. Which is awesome so now it won’t drive me crazy anymore. 😉
Fibro just makes life so complicated. I just want to do what I want when I want but that will never be the case ever again for me. Ugh…
So after the ceremony at my aunts funeral, we went over to the other side of the building for food and family time. I had my nephew Kaegen with me and we sat at a table full of my mom’s first cousin’s. As soon as I sat down Debbie say’s “so, when are you due?” I felt so confused. Looking back and forth to her and Kaegen. Thinking she was talking about him but her question didn’t make any sence. Finally it hits me… So I say, I’m not pregnant. She say’s oh, you’re not? I say no and she changes the subject real fast.
So yep. I got that most unwanted kind of question no woman ever wants to get… I’m not even sure where she got that I was or why she even asked me. I know I really have gained some pounds since I quit smoking. Most of which did go to my gut, But im sure that’s all coffee and pop there. Haha, And weight gain is just common in people who have fibromyalgia. The meds and such. But gee. So of course I was asking my closest family members if I looked pregnant…. It’s just so embarrassing to have someone ask you that question when you’re not pregnant. ugh..
- So, Friday morning… One of the worst. wake ups you can get.
My daughter handing me her cell phone saying,” it’s grandma ” And grandma (my mother) crying because her big sister passed away in the middle of the night.
My aunt that I grew up super close to. I was like her 4th child. Oh my gosh. I new it was coming but just didn’t expect yet.
She had a couple different strokes and also colon cancer . She faught a good fight and now is I heaven with her mom and dad. ❤
I of course got up and went to say my goodbyes before they took her away since she’s being cremated.
She’s an angle now with no more suffering.😇