I just want to be me

   I hate this, I hate this, I hate this…. uuggghhh. I’m so miserable all the time and today has been a hard one.  I’m in so much pain.  I’m so super tired.  I napped for like I think 5 hours.  I hate sleeping my life away.  I’m also so freaking week.  My brain is nothing but a fog.  I can’t think straight.  I feel like I have a fever but I don’t. My legs, my knees.. ugh. My life…. My life is so painful and so hard to deal with.  I hate it when I have to stop.  Just stop Mic.  Ugh … No.  No because I want to keep being me.  I want to keep caring for my loves.  I don’t want to stop these things.  I want to be me!  It’s so hard to convince myself when I need to slow down and stop. I keep telling myself in my head but I typically don’t listen until it puts me out. Lays me down. No options available.  I hate this life. I hate living this way. I just want to be me. I just want to be Mic. I just want to be Mom. I just want to be babe and Meme, daughter and sister.  I just want to be me!

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