Trust me, Eat the monkey

This is a reblog of a friends post that I just loved.  This blog is just so prefect! 

   ​I had a friend tell me that she used to trust anyone that could write a prescription. So did I. Trust. That is a big word. Those five little letters in a row can be life-altering. Do you trust me? Do I trust you? Trust is a knife wrapped with a bow. A gift that can cut you and make you bleed.

In life there are buyers and there are sellers. You have to be willing to purchase what they are selling in order for that seller to continue selling. Does this make sense? The rule of supply and demand. We all have something to sell and we all have something to buy, that is what motivates us. The bottom line is do you trust the process, the person, the outcome?

Let’s cut the through the B.S. 

I want to get well. I want the doctor to cure me! Why? Because I want to be healthy, return to the career that I love and make money so I can buy shit that I want to buy. I busted my butt getting a college diploma and I haven’t gotten my just rewards! I’m sick and tired of being a “patient”. I’m sick of being the “buyer” of those things deemednecessary by a seller. Like medications, therapies, yoga mats, TENs units, and etcetera. I want to be a seller for a change! I want to sell my services and get a big fat paycheck for the work I can be trusted to do! The work I was trained and educated to do.

What am I willing to do to become a seller? At one point, I was willing to do A-N-Y-T-H-I-N-G! If I was told to eat a monkey, I’d eat a damn monkey! I trusted the people who were telling me to eat the monkey and I ate! Guess what? It didn’t work. I am not cured. Broken trust? Not for me! I went back, bleeding with hands held open for another helping.

And I kept going back, after all, these people had prescription pads…

Eventually, trust was slowly and sadly removed from my vocabulary. Trust must now be earned. I don’t care if you can write a prescription or have several initials after your name. I do not care at all! You have to earn my trust. I’m not buying blindly anymore. I will listen and take your advice into consideration, but my purchasing power remains steadfastly with me.

I can read, I can research, I can weigh out options and make a list of pros and cons… I am smart. I am a consumer at this point in my life and I am well aware of the target that places squarely on my back. I’m the buyer. Within these confines, I need to do my due diligence! That isn’t just a good idea, it is imperative to my goal of getting as healthy as I can possibly be and living a good life.

You are smart, you can read, research and do your due diligence! Don’t blindly buy what the seller has to offer, it might be just a monkey.




Unique Blogger Award?

   Thank you so much Kim for nominating me for the unique blogger award. I don’t really think I compare to you. Your such an  amazing women. With strength like only God knows. Dealing with all you have for as long as you have.   And a heart of gold to boot. Your always there to lift me up and inspire me. If you don’t already follow her (which you should)  then check her out at 

   So, Kim my three things that describe me in photos are as followed~

My children~ Left to right~

Rachael (My son’s girlfriend), My 17 year old son Naven and my baby, My 13 year old daughter Rylie. My💙

My nephew I talk about a lot that I help raise.  My wittle baby 2-1/2 year old Kaegen Jaxton Kyrie. Whom I call Jax and my 💛

Annnnd, finally my husband Tyler. The best man ever!  I love this man more than I could ever explain.  He also is my💚 I love this picture too.  Fighting over the hose to spray one another😁 Great time, and wonderful memories.  My guys💞
   I hope these pictures help describe me.  My heart and my life literally revolves around my family.  And they are my happy place😁

A little

   So, I’m feeling a little better now.  I just hope that I at least stay at this level.  I don’t want to go back to the fibro flare. Well, honestly – who in their right mind would??😕 

   I kind of been going up and down, up and down lately. I don’t even really get too far away from the flare and then it pops back up again. Ugh…

   I go back to my doctor next week.  So finally, that day is coming closer.😊It’s for a regular check-up with my pain doc, so I will tell him about my issues and see what he thinks. 

   Of course I haven’t gotten into any psychiatrist yet and I really think that’s what this appointment is really about.  That he just wants to check in on me with that and see how it’s  going. Although, that has gone nowhere but at least this won’t be a wasted trip like last time.  I actually have some issues that hopefully he can address for me. Well, hopefully he will address them and not  just tell me I’m crazy. So cross your fingers for me and I will keep you all posted.   

   Thank you all for the wishes, love sent and hugs. I appreciate it and all the wonderful words. Heartfelt make me cry kind of stuff.💞 You are all so super awesome and I truely appreciate all your support. Each and everyone of you are awesome 😚 Untill next time👋