My new shirt


It is what it is

I just found this. I thought I posted it back when I wrote it. Sorry…

So I went to see my pain doc and I told him all my issues. About the leg cramps and pain increasing. And the tiredness.  I’m just so sleepy all the time. Ugh…. I also told him about the fibro flares acting like a roller-coaster up down up down kind of thing and he said that all of it is normal. He expects all of that. Which I guess now thinking about it, it is becoming winter and at this time of year everybody’s everything kind of gets worse. So I guess it is normal. He went back to what he’s said in the past.  Telling me to make sure you’re doing stuff. That when a lot of people start to hurt they want to sit around and do nothing but really they don’t realize that it makes their pain worse. I felt like, duh…. I told him that I stretch a lot and I walked as needed. I can tell when I need to walk and I’ll go walk. I told him I walk with my nephew and or my dogs. He asked what kind of dogs I have.  Which they are Maltese.  He said okay they’re small enough they won’t pull you. I’m guessing he doesn’t want me walking big dogs but not that, that’s important because I don’t have a big dog. Then he asked me if I’ve ever tried yoga. Which I have in the past. Years ago.  And when I did it I loved it. It’s fun but I told him I did try and I even bought a new mat. The whole nine yards. But it makes my back hurt so bad. Unbearable. Like mush. It was like I got ran over by a semi. I just can’t do that anymore.  I have scoliosis on top of the fibromyalgia. I was diagnosed with that when I was 16 years old. My spine makes the shape of an S which I guess is for my maiden name because my maiden name starts with an S. Haha.  Anyway, so I just can’t do it but I do streth as needed. I told him I would even have my daughter hold my leg up while it stretches. The stretch is like a “It hurts so bad it feels so good” kind of thing. I know he just assumed I didn’t do anything. That I was just sitting around. But he said that all of that is normal and to be expected and that he would see me after the holidays and see how I’m feeling. I really don’t think he’s going to do anything then either. Unless maybe if I’m totally crazy in pain. I know that there’s always going to be a level pain. Out sure would be nice if it would go away.  Also he never did mention the psychiatrist. The nurse asked me and I told her I never heard from one but he did not ask anything about it. So I don’t know if I should continue to just call and try to find one or should I just say fire truck it.  Anyhow,  I am going to post another post today. I got my new shirt yesterday and I forgot to mention it in last night’s post. It’s my second fibromyalgia shirt and I love it! So I’m going to take a picture and I will post it as well today and share it with all of you. 

Until Tomorrow 

   So, tomorrow I finally see my pain doc.  Excited and dreading it all at the same time. Excited for hopeful help but dreading that what if he just brushes me off.  You know….  How so many people do. 😔            I’ll keep you posted.  😊 

   Also Halloween is tomorrow. 🎃 Excited to watch my baby boy Kaegen go trick or treating. 👻 Then try to get him to share some candy with me. 😁🍭🍬 And hopefull end up with lots of Reese cups. 🍫 So n until tomorrow. 😉