Jeep no more

Sorry I haven’t been around for about a month. Idk why but I’m always crazy busy. Bla…

Anyway I wanted to share my recent unfortunate event. 😔 so first my husband is so awesome that he bought me a jeep. A 2004 jeep liberty with brand new 150 mile tires on it. Great sounding radio, the back “hatch” opens sideways not up like most. And to top it off this jeep drive so smooth. Smooth as butter. Omg I love my jeep. I didn’t even ask for it or any new anything. I got my new jeep on July 25th 2018.

My son goes to camping with his best friend an hour away from home. After 3 or 4 days there and on the 9th of August he calls me upset . There is something all over his face. It hurts and he could get any sleep do to it. I finally get a picture of his face and know immediately that I have to go get him. It’s an hour drive but I’m excited to drive my jeep on this long trip😁

I get there and I know right away it’s poison ivy. Which he seems to have bad reactions to. He was pretty cranky so I just gave him some meds and we headed home. Got home and started putting cream on his face and that’s when I realized how bad the poison ivy was. It’s was all over. Even across eyes. Poor guy. So I called his Doctors office and talked to the nurse. She suggested I run him to urgent care.

So we, my son naven and I leave home and head to our closest urgent care. Naven really tired from the benadryl so he falls asleep again In the jeep while I’m driving.

We live outside of town so were driving on country roads.

I’m just driving. Following all laws. Look both ways before I go over the tracks. All good. Keep on heading down Harris rd. I start to slow for the stop sign. I plan on turning right. I’m about to be at a full stop……

BAAAAAAMMMMMMM!

My son jumped up. I didn’t even see it coming. It just happened. 😣 A big ol truck hit us head on. He was coming from the road I wanted to turn on but he said he didn’t see me. That his big ol mirror blocked me out so when he turned onto Harris rd he cut his turn short and right into me. My brand new jeep😢 I literally cried like a baby. Nobody was hurt. Except me which I didn’t even feel at first. My neck, upper back shoulder areas started hurting once I calmed down. The highway patrol had the EMS come for me. Ugh….

The emergency room does x-ray and cat scan and end up telling me I have spasms and tenderness.

It’s now the 14th of August. My neck and shoulder back area still hurt. I did see I chiropractor today. She cracked my neck which was awesome😁 I go back to see her in 2 days. I’m still waiting to hear back from his insurance because the wreck was his fault so his insurance has to pay.

I keep having dreams that im in wrecks. And in real life I’m so scared when I’m driving. Every nose or bump makes my heart drop. I’ve also noticed I’m still a bit emotional.

People keep saying – don’t worry you’ll get a new jeep and that we are okay and that’s what’s important. Which I know. I do. It’s just I loved that jeep. It drove like butter. And my husband told me he bought it for me just to see a smile on my face. The next jeep or whatever isn’t from my hubs. It’s an emotional thing. Ugh.

And to top it all off I’ve never been in an auto accident before so I really don’t have a clue on what I’m doing.

I just wish it didn’t happen…. I only had my jeep for 15 days.

I’m so sad! 😣

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Road trip..

Road trip day…

We went to pick up our daughter from a2 week vacation at our cousins house over in Missouri.

This is them as I Write this.😩 sleepy heads. 😁

So this is the story….

2 weeks ago we (my husband and I were suppose to meet our cousins half way in Illinois on Saturday.. well we decided to surprise them and so on Friday we drove all the way to our cousins house. We got there around 11pm and my daughter walked down the hall and when Chris saw her he wad like…. what???. Lol it was awesome. You had to be there. Anyway we had a great time. My husband and I stayed the weekend and headed home Sunday morning. Our daughter Rylie was staying there with them for 2 weeks. So that was 2 full weeks free of miss mouth. Lol. No.. I really missed my baby. Although I missed the 4th of July with her this year😣 … It’s okay. She had a great time. The very next day though… ughhh July 5th 2018… what a bad day. So first our guinea pig had her babies. She gave birth to 6 but only 5 lived. One of the babies was still born. So that was a happy sad time. My son buried the baby out back next to, well my daughters cat that she’s had for about 3 years was hit by a car. Yes, my daughters cat was killed while she was on vacation. Were still on the road but want to wait until we are home to tell her. That way she’s not super upset and stuck in the jeep. My niece haylei was the one face I the picture. She came with us that way she’s here for Rylie for moral support.

It’s the white cat. Long haired white pretty kitty. Her name was whiskers. I always called her kitty. Man I miss her so much already. Even know she was really my daughters cat she would only let me pet and hold her. She was the funniest crazy cat ever! See her in the crock pot? Lol yeah😂 the black cat in the one picture is Batman. He’s my son’s rescue cat. He was actually bit by a garden snake recently. Poor boy.

But anyway we did decorate kitty’s grave . She even has a headstone. My precious girl. So oh boy we still gotta tell Rylie the bad news. Wish is luck!

Actually interested?

So as most fibro warriors know. Most people without this condition we call fibromyalgia don’t really seem to want to hear about it. In my experience people have no clue what I’m talking about and there is so much info and confusion it’s so easy to loose someone’s interest. But most people don’t even show any kind of interest. Or show any empathy. It’s sad but true. Most people could really care less about what pain or issues I endure.

This is why I was super surprised when I had not one but two lady’s who were curious and seemed to care. Even asked if there are any medications that mite help. They showed so much compassion and it felt wonderful! 💜

These two lady’s were the mother and mother in-law of a friends who I was at a mutual friendly party with. Nice party, nice time and nice people.

Mask

So very true! Every second of every day I’m faking it. I even try to fake out my own self. Just so I can be happier. If that makes any sence. But yes for sure I have many masks. I don’t want people’s pitty. I don’t want to bring down their happiness. Seeing my loved ones happy makes me happy. Some people never see me with my mask off. See the new, real me and most never will. I will fake it forever or until I can’t fake it anymore.

Yolo- so I live the best life I can while I can. It’s strange but before fibro I was daring and did off the wall ideas but since being diagnosed I’ve definitely moved up a big level and when any situation or simply a thought. An idea. Like let’s spray my husband with shaving cream. 😂 -Just because- pops in my head I’m more of a yes man now. This is my life and I honestly don’t know how long I have left to make memories. I want to enjoy as much as I can while I still can. I don’t know what tomorrow will bring. Especially with this illness.

No one ever says I shouldn’t have gave it a try or I shouldn’t have tried that. But what they do say is I regret not trying or doing. And that’s pretty much how I think now days. Less conservative. More memories! 💜

Father in-law blessing

Update update!

My father in-law is doing so so well. He takes short morning bike rides. Defiantly far from the anytime diagnoses we were givin. He is still on his oxygen and a crap ton of meds but he’s back! He’s him! We have truly been blessed! Thank you Jesus!

Don’t mow the grass

I think mowing the grass is fun. 🌱 Riding lawn mower or push mower, either way. I think it’s fun! But i learned that the vibrations put me in pain. So, no I shouldn’t mow and typically I don’t because I will pay for it later. Well the other day I thought I’m going to try it again. Since it’s been a while and I’m on different meds now since the last time I tried. Maybe I can do it. I only mowed about 30 minutes and while mowing I was fine. Normal me but fine.😊 Then the stupid fibro kicked in overdrive on my right wrist.😔 So I guess I got my answer. It’s still a no go. My son gave me a little cute lecture about how I should not have done that and when my husband got home from work he asked who mowed the lawn and I told him it was me but don’t worry I already learned my lesson. My right wrist is hurting. He just gave me a look. They just want the best for me. It’s just so hard not to do things you want to do just because you have a stupid syndrome and you’r going to hurt later. You know! Huh!

In-law

Hello all,

Well I’m about to go to my parent in-laws for a sudden dinner for no reason. She ( My mother in-law) just felt like it. So that’s awesome. It means I don’t have to cook. Which I’m not really good at or even like to do. Bla on cooking. LOL

So , lol I’m back. I know you didn’t know I left but I almost ruined my son’s potato soup. Yeah I kinda forgot I was cooking… lol oops. He is sick so he’s not going to the dinner. He is 17 so he will be ok. His fever has improved so that’s awesome.

I have my nephew Kaegen. He’s fake whining right now. It’s pretty much his theme song. Whinnnnnn. lol ugh it drives me crazy though.

So anyway my reason for jumping on here today is I wanted to at least real fast give everyone an update on my friend Kara. She has improved so much! She is awake now. It did take her a few days to really come out of it and realize what was going on and she’s so upset that she’s in her situation. Mostly made because she can’t talk due to the threk. But it will get better. She almost didn’t make it and is now so much better. I’m so glad they didn’t pull her plug. She will have about a year of recovery but hey, she’s alive.

~Talk to you later

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The Sunshine Blogger Award

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Wow, Thank you so much Kim for The Sunshine Blogger Award. I’m honored!                    If you don’t know who Kim is you should definitely check out her blog. She is an amazing  writer. I’ve learned so much from her and I love reading her post’s. I’m excited to answer my eleven questions and then read more of everyone else’s answers. These are so much fun and we learn so much about one another. 🙂

 

         My Eleven Answers to Questions 

  1. Ice cream or french fries? French fries- I’ve never been a big ice cream eater.
  2. Do you consider yourself a writer? Yes- I’ve been writing all my life. I’ve even published two poems when I was younger.
  3. What would you do if you could not blog? Talk more. Haha. That’s actually why I started my blog. So I would have a place to put my feelings and experiences about fibromyalgia so that my family did’t go insane. 🙂
  4. Have you already had your dream vacation or are you still planning it? Honestly, I’ve never really had a DREAM vacation. There are different places I think would be cool or fun to go but never been real big about it. Hmm.
  5. Sports car or muscle car? Mustang! Any color but would prefer purple or green 🙂
  6. What do you believe are the pros and cons of using cuss words on a blog? Well, I guess if used mildly then they can show more of how a person if feeling when used but if used nonstop then I probably wouldn’t be interested in reading. 
  7. What is your favorite social media outlet? To vent my feelings- well, that’s here:) I use different places for different things. My blog is my most personal place. The rest are for keeping connected to friends and family. Play around, free advertising for my business and or sales. Each place is different.
  8. Defend your position as a cat person or a dog person? Wow, hmmm I’m not sure. Cats are easier by a long shot but we have both. They both have the good, the bad and the ugly. lol 
  9. Favorite guilty pleasure? Binge watching T.V all day long. #lazydays 🙂 
  10. What was the last book you read? It’s been way to long. I know it was by James Patterson though. Does that count? I love him! He’s my favorite author. Hands down. But I read a lot then don’t. I kinda go back and forth and lately is a don’t faze. 
  11. Who was the last person you said, “I love you” to? Easy-My husband. He called me from work a little while ago and when hanging up we always say Love you.

 

Eleven Questions for my Nominees

1. Hot or cold?

2. How did you find or learn about WordPress?

3. Favorite T.V show?

4. What do you blog about and why?

5. Favorite color?

6. What is the one thing you could never give up?

7. Coffee or tea?

8. Who is your favorite blogger?

9. Chocolate or vanilla?

10. Have you ever published anything? If so, name drop so we may check it out.

11. What country you live in?

 

 

My Eleven Nominees are:

http://fibromomma29.wordpress.com/

https://wordpress.com/read/feeds/62546926

https://wordpress.com/read/feeds/65684163

http://nikkimalbert.com/

http://invisiblyme.com/

http://www.photobaugh.com/

http://fibroflutters.wordpress.com/

http://sandrajjackson.wordpress.com/

https://spinsterpatty.wordpress.com/

https://wordpress.com/read/feeds/58122993

https://wordpress.com/read/feeds/59817807

 

These are the eleven blogs I’d like to nominate for The Sunshine Blogger Award.             I love reading their blogs and you should check them out! There are so many more bloggers that I’d love to add to this list.                                                                            Everyone nominated has the choice to participate and accept the award or not.                    Let’s have some fun! 🙂

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My sweet Kara

One of my life long best friends is on life support. There’s so much going bad in her body. It’s crazy!

So okay, Let me start from the beginning . Growing up since age 5 it was alway’s Kara, Cathy and myself. Us 3 little hooligans. 🙂 Experiencing life together. The good the bad and the ugly. Challenging life together. Fights to First boyfriends, first loves, hearts achs and shoulders to lean and or cry on. Even having baby’s. We were never too far apart. From small children to grown adults. We always had each other’s backs and will always have a special place in our hearts, in our souls for each other. We may be distant or apart for a time but when we see each other, we talk like it was yesterday. We truly know each other. Better than anyone else.

My Kara, my poor poor Kara. She’s been distant for awhile but we all know each other so well that the distance don’t change a thing. I know, Cathy know’s and she know’s. It’s all good though. No love lost!

So I found out Kara went into the ER for some pain in her leg’s and having trouble breathing. ( She will be 40 in June) (So yes she’s way to young for this.) That ER rushed her to another BETTER hospital for her care and here we go-

Blood clots in leg’s and throughout body. One to two or more in her lungs. (Note that having only one in lungs can kill you.) Kidney’s completely quit working. Yes both! So sedated for pain she can’t even open her eye’s. Looking a little yellow. Blood virus or something. Septic. Loosing blood but don’t know where or how. Machines breathing for her. Finally completely on life support. ICU. Immediate family only. She wouldn’t be alive today without the machines. She’s fighting the fight of her life. (I know I’m missing so much) Her first grandchild is to be born next month. A baby girl. The Doctor asked Kara’s mom if she’d like to pull the plug…. Thank God she said no. Although she was worried if she was being selfish but she know’s her daughter is super bullheaded and a hell of a fighter. Then a couple day’s later Kara starts to slowly improve. Her kidney’s started slitely working and they were able to turn down the life support. (Whatever that means.) She still has so many issues with her body. Her body parts just aint working right. She spiked a fever and so they are trying to get that down and Monday they are doing some more stuff to her. Like checking out her heart valve and other stuff. I can’t remember all these medical words. If they can get her stable and breathing on her on they will move her to a nursing home for long term care. She will still continue to fight for her life. Her recovery is estimated a year in nursing home. A year of fighting for her life. She don’t even have a clue of what is going on. If she knew she would fight harder and be better already. She’s always been the toughest of us all. She’s been in lots of fights in her life guys and girls and never lost a single one. She’s my Kara. She nicknamed me Kamicles. If that’s how it’s spelled lol But it was Kara, Cathy and Mic so she wanted me to have the same beginning name sound. Lol We were kids but it stuck with her to call me that. She’s defiantly more than a friend. She’s family. The 3 of us were unbreakable! I’m so worried. I’m trying to think positive. Trying not to cry. It’s hard. Cathy is just pissed. We defiantly handle things differently. I was always the more emotional one. They were the strong bad asses. They were always there to protect me. Physically, emotionally, financially, and any other llys. lol. I’m also the youngest of the 3 so that might explain a bit. They thought me to be though, to stand up for my self. Pushed me through so much to help me. I was such a weak person as a child. Not anymore though. Well, to a point. I defiantly will stand up for my self. Idk. I’m rambling. I think talking or writing and getting these thoughts off my chest help me. I just love her so much. I can’t loose her!!

They wanted her mom to pull the plug! They can’t do that. They have to let her have a fair fight. Because there is a chance. I want to tell her I love her one more time. It’s not fair . She don’t even know whats going on. It’s just not fair.