My calves ….

Ouch, ouch,ouch….

Man-o-mighty…😦

Yet again…

My right calves hurts so bad. One long cramp. Stuck in place for so freaking long. Others join in as pop out assassin but the one. Man. All of them.. ouch!! The pain is musty stuck there forever. I’ve done all my tricks and now I’m actually REALLY tying to rest. My husband even gave me a massage.😁 He’s the best!

But yes my current situation is a wrapped calve inside my heating pad. I have my hair tie holding it around my calve. 😉 you do what you gotta do and improvise😁 lol

Ps. I’ve went loco. Is it calve calf or ?? I don’t even know. Brain fog for sure. Haha

So, here is a real life picture of my life right now. 💜💛

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2nd place!

I just wanted to share my daughters Rylie luikart’s track&field results. She got 2nd place yesterday in the 400 run. 🏃🏃

So proud of my baby! 💜💜💜

Peanuts

Caution of You have a weak stomach. 😵 Stop reading here🚫🛇otherwise here I go…

So you know I never really thought about it until after last night’s readings and then my post, but about 2 years ago we went to Florida on a plane. ✈It was my first time ever on a plane because prior to that I had always refused… 🛩I’m terribly afraid of heights. I think it’s also a control issue. Not having control of my own, well anything. Then I figured you only live once. I’ll guess I’ll give it a go or at least try for the family. However I did warn them I may panic and not actually make it. But I would definitely try because we wanted to go to Florida on vacation for two weeks. 🌞 Well, I actually made it!! And if you’ve ever been on a plane you know they give you peanuts to snack on. I had forgotten all about peanuts. I haven’t had them in probably over a decade or more. I don’t even know. I honestly cannot even remember the last time I had a peanut before the Florida trip. So I got a taste for peanuts. 😁 I was like oh my Gosh, I need more. So at first it was every now and then to now I eat them pretty much nightly. My husband and I watch shows together every night. It’s so nice. Usually we will go into our bedroom about 8pm. 🛏Sit in our bed and watch some shows together. Right now we are watching Chicago PD. 📺We already watched the entire season of Chicago Fire. Love them both! Anyways, I did notice that ever since I started eating these peanuts every single night that they have totally helped me be regular. Don’t mean to gross anyone out. But it’s almost like a miracle worker for me. When I ran out of my peanuts and I didn’t have them for a few days I could really tell. Actually I recently noticed this. I finally put two and two together and I was like oh my gosh I think it’s because I haven’t had any peanuts! So now I try and make sure to always be stocked up on my peanuts.

😁Well i hope this helps someone😉

And I will talk to you later. Bye bye ladies and gentlemen.💜

Leeeeggggssss

Ugh my legs. I hate them. My daughter had a Track & Field meet today, which I love watching her run but go figure with our weather. So lovely lately and today was nasty cold or chilly to most but cold to me and wet. Crap! So go figure my legs are on extra did to being out and dealing with this nasty weather while standing a lot too cheer and root our team on. My feet froze in my rain boots.😔 Note to all. Rain boots are not even close to warm. I definitely learned my lesson about that today. 🌧 next time I will double up on some good ol big warm thick socks😊

Anyway so that’s why my legs are on extra. Note – my daughter Rylie did wonderful tonight. She came in 3rd between everyone but was 1st in her own team this was in the 400 run. 🏃If you know what I’m talking about. I really don’t though. Lol honestly I never know what’s going on. 😁

So back to my point. So my legs are bad tonight and while skimming through my fb I found myself in one of my fibro groups where Kim does an amazing job, by the way and I found a post, courtesy of Kim about leg pain. 💙 so much helpful information. Kim is great blogger here (on WordPress) which is where she shared her links from. http://itrippedoverastone.com.

If you have leg pain you need to read her posts. ⬇

Restless Leg Syndrome Progressing To Elbows? Yes!

I hope this information helps someone And you should definitely check out Kim’s blog!

Cat on a ledge

So yes that’s my cat. His name is Missou. He came home with us from our family in Missouri last summer. He will be a year old in July. He actually has blue eyes. Which if you know anything about cats. Blue eyes are super rare. Unless it’s Siamese cats.

Anyways I just wanted to come and blog a little blog blog… Yesterday, the weather here was fantastic. The day was just a dream. Perfect weather. Windows open and watching some live TV with my favorite nephew Kaegen Jaxton Kyrie. We were actually watching “A Bug’s Life” which he was really tuned into. I think he really liked that one. The ants and the bugs all talking and such. We are just sitting on the couch together watching tv we played outside all day together. The cat climbing the tree. He could only get so far and then he just stood on the broken Branch area. Which made me think of “a cat on the ledge” but it’s just been fantastic and easy going weather. The feeling was just complete comfort and it was like I was sitting there and I’m just like oh my gosh this is the life right here. Which I told Kaegan, “I’m so happy with you today and we had the best day and we have a good life.” Of course he said it back to me. It’s been wonderful so I wanted to stop in and say hey, and I hope everyone is having a nice day as well. An easy relaxed day with no pain. Talk to you later

In-law

Hello all,

Well I’m about to go to my parent in-laws for a sudden dinner for no reason. She ( My mother in-law) just felt like it. So that’s awesome. It means I don’t have to cook. Which I’m not really good at or even like to do. Bla on cooking. LOL

So , lol I’m back. I know you didn’t know I left but I almost ruined my son’s potato soup. Yeah I kinda forgot I was cooking… lol oops. He is sick so he’s not going to the dinner. He is 17 so he will be ok. His fever has improved so that’s awesome.

I have my nephew Kaegen. He’s fake whining right now. It’s pretty much his theme song. Whinnnnnn. lol ugh it drives me crazy though.

So anyway my reason for jumping on here today is I wanted to at least real fast give everyone an update on my friend Kara. She has improved so much! She is awake now. It did take her a few days to really come out of it and realize what was going on and she’s so upset that she’s in her situation. Mostly made because she can’t talk due to the threk. But it will get better. She almost didn’t make it and is now so much better. I’m so glad they didn’t pull her plug. She will have about a year of recovery but hey, she’s alive.

~Talk to you later

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The Sunshine Blogger Award

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Wow, Thank you so much Kim for The Sunshine Blogger Award. I’m honored!                    If you don’t know who Kim is you should definitely check out her blog. She is an amazing  writer. I’ve learned so much from her and I love reading her post’s. I’m excited to answer my eleven questions and then read more of everyone else’s answers. These are so much fun and we learn so much about one another. 🙂

 

         My Eleven Answers to Questions 

  1. Ice cream or french fries? French fries- I’ve never been a big ice cream eater.
  2. Do you consider yourself a writer? Yes- I’ve been writing all my life. I’ve even published two poems when I was younger.
  3. What would you do if you could not blog? Talk more. Haha. That’s actually why I started my blog. So I would have a place to put my feelings and experiences about fibromyalgia so that my family did’t go insane. 🙂
  4. Have you already had your dream vacation or are you still planning it? Honestly, I’ve never really had a DREAM vacation. There are different places I think would be cool or fun to go but never been real big about it. Hmm.
  5. Sports car or muscle car? Mustang! Any color but would prefer purple or green 🙂
  6. What do you believe are the pros and cons of using cuss words on a blog? Well, I guess if used mildly then they can show more of how a person if feeling when used but if used nonstop then I probably wouldn’t be interested in reading. 
  7. What is your favorite social media outlet? To vent my feelings- well, that’s here:) I use different places for different things. My blog is my most personal place. The rest are for keeping connected to friends and family. Play around, free advertising for my business and or sales. Each place is different.
  8. Defend your position as a cat person or a dog person? Wow, hmmm I’m not sure. Cats are easier by a long shot but we have both. They both have the good, the bad and the ugly. lol 
  9. Favorite guilty pleasure? Binge watching T.V all day long. #lazydays 🙂 
  10. What was the last book you read? It’s been way to long. I know it was by James Patterson though. Does that count? I love him! He’s my favorite author. Hands down. But I read a lot then don’t. I kinda go back and forth and lately is a don’t faze. 
  11. Who was the last person you said, “I love you” to? Easy-My husband. He called me from work a little while ago and when hanging up we always say Love you.

 

Eleven Questions for my Nominees

1. Hot or cold?

2. How did you find or learn about WordPress?

3. Favorite T.V show?

4. What do you blog about and why?

5. Favorite color?

6. What is the one thing you could never give up?

7. Coffee or tea?

8. Who is your favorite blogger?

9. Chocolate or vanilla?

10. Have you ever published anything? If so, name drop so we may check it out.

11. What country you live in?

 

 

My Eleven Nominees are:

http://fibromomma29.wordpress.com/

https://wordpress.com/read/feeds/62546926

https://wordpress.com/read/feeds/65684163

http://nikkimalbert.com/

http://invisiblyme.com/

http://www.photobaugh.com/

http://fibroflutters.wordpress.com/

http://sandrajjackson.wordpress.com/

https://spinsterpatty.wordpress.com/

https://wordpress.com/read/feeds/58122993

https://wordpress.com/read/feeds/59817807

 

These are the eleven blogs I’d like to nominate for The Sunshine Blogger Award.             I love reading their blogs and you should check them out! There are so many more bloggers that I’d love to add to this list.                                                                            Everyone nominated has the choice to participate and accept the award or not.                    Let’s have some fun! 🙂

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My sweet Kara

One of my life long best friends is on life support. There’s so much going bad in her body. It’s crazy!

So okay, Let me start from the beginning . Growing up since age 5 it was alway’s Kara, Cathy and myself. Us 3 little hooligans. 🙂 Experiencing life together. The good the bad and the ugly. Challenging life together. Fights to First boyfriends, first loves, hearts achs and shoulders to lean and or cry on. Even having baby’s. We were never too far apart. From small children to grown adults. We always had each other’s backs and will always have a special place in our hearts, in our souls for each other. We may be distant or apart for a time but when we see each other, we talk like it was yesterday. We truly know each other. Better than anyone else.

My Kara, my poor poor Kara. She’s been distant for awhile but we all know each other so well that the distance don’t change a thing. I know, Cathy know’s and she know’s. It’s all good though. No love lost!

So I found out Kara went into the ER for some pain in her leg’s and having trouble breathing. ( She will be 40 in June) (So yes she’s way to young for this.) That ER rushed her to another BETTER hospital for her care and here we go-

Blood clots in leg’s and throughout body. One to two or more in her lungs. (Note that having only one in lungs can kill you.) Kidney’s completely quit working. Yes both! So sedated for pain she can’t even open her eye’s. Looking a little yellow. Blood virus or something. Septic. Loosing blood but don’t know where or how. Machines breathing for her. Finally completely on life support. ICU. Immediate family only. She wouldn’t be alive today without the machines. She’s fighting the fight of her life. (I know I’m missing so much) Her first grandchild is to be born next month. A baby girl. The Doctor asked Kara’s mom if she’d like to pull the plug…. Thank God she said no. Although she was worried if she was being selfish but she know’s her daughter is super bullheaded and a hell of a fighter. Then a couple day’s later Kara starts to slowly improve. Her kidney’s started slitely working and they were able to turn down the life support. (Whatever that means.) She still has so many issues with her body. Her body parts just aint working right. She spiked a fever and so they are trying to get that down and Monday they are doing some more stuff to her. Like checking out her heart valve and other stuff. I can’t remember all these medical words. If they can get her stable and breathing on her on they will move her to a nursing home for long term care. She will still continue to fight for her life. Her recovery is estimated a year in nursing home. A year of fighting for her life. She don’t even have a clue of what is going on. If she knew she would fight harder and be better already. She’s always been the toughest of us all. She’s been in lots of fights in her life guys and girls and never lost a single one. She’s my Kara. She nicknamed me Kamicles. If that’s how it’s spelled lol But it was Kara, Cathy and Mic so she wanted me to have the same beginning name sound. Lol We were kids but it stuck with her to call me that. She’s defiantly more than a friend. She’s family. The 3 of us were unbreakable! I’m so worried. I’m trying to think positive. Trying not to cry. It’s hard. Cathy is just pissed. We defiantly handle things differently. I was always the more emotional one. They were the strong bad asses. They were always there to protect me. Physically, emotionally, financially, and any other llys. lol. I’m also the youngest of the 3 so that might explain a bit. They thought me to be though, to stand up for my self. Pushed me through so much to help me. I was such a weak person as a child. Not anymore though. Well, to a point. I defiantly will stand up for my self. Idk. I’m rambling. I think talking or writing and getting these thoughts off my chest help me. I just love her so much. I can’t loose her!!

They wanted her mom to pull the plug! They can’t do that. They have to let her have a fair fight. Because there is a chance. I want to tell her I love her one more time. It’s not fair . She don’t even know whats going on. It’s just not fair.

Bump

So I have a bump on my wrist. I noticed it about a month or 2 ago. One day I woke up and it was there. I just figured, hey I have another knuckle kind of thing. Lol. My sister-in-law seen it. She’s been a nurse for like ever and she told me what it was. I cannot remember the name. Also I guess something about something inside my wrist leaking. I don’t know. It don’t hurt now but I guess eventually it will. They will have to cut it open and drain it. Then my cousin told me that he has one and had his drained and it comes back. Well I just showed my mother-in-law. We had went to lunch and I showed her and she’s like let me see and holds it down. Keeps it held down for a minute and asked is it smaller. I guess she’s had some. She knows what it is and Abbott them also because she’s been a nurse for a million years. Lol. She’s our family doctor. That’s what the kids say anyways. After she did that I don’t know what happened. If holding it down released a poison that was stuck in there or an infection. I don’t know but I felt something come over me like I was so dizzy. I could barely see. I felt nauseous. I felt like I was going to die. I felt like I was going to vomit. I felt like I was going to anything and everything. I just don’t know. I have been sick ever since then. I do not feel very well. I also remember my sister-in-law said that it’s very common with people with fibromyalgia. I don’t know what’s in it. Maybe I should Google it. Maybe I should call my Dr. Maybe I could even talk to my mother-in-law. I played it off when I felt sick at the restaurant. I don’t know how she didn’t notice. I went to the bathroom and I think I was in there for like ever but she never did say anything about it. Anyways I don’t feel good and I truly believe it’s because she held down the bump on my wrist. 😔

Social Security???

Hmmmm???? I just don’t know. I think I’m just scared of denial but I need to get over it.

I do have a chronic illness that prevents me from holding down a job. Especially when one main area of my pain is in my hands. There ain’t much out there that you don’t need hands for. Heck you also have to get there some how right? And if I can’t drive because of my pain then what???

So no I have not applied for social security yet. I know I need to. My mother in-law says STOP reading the internet and just file.

From what I read I doubt I’ll be approved. Even though hands are an essential part of EVERYTHING.

I just think I haven’t suffered enough in their eyes. To put it simply.

I don’t know. My bad pain started in 2012. I was finally diagnosed in 2016. I have my regular GP who prescribes most of my meds and then he sent me to pain management which of whom I don’t get pain med from. Only some other med I take in the AM. He said it was newly discovered to also help with my issues. Heck I don’t know what actually does what and or helps anymore. It’s all kinda just blended. And hats that. My fibro med history.

Any advice out there? I live in the US in Ohio if that helps. 🙂